Friday, March 21, 2008
just return frm breakfast. today slept until 9am=D
i didn't go to sch yesterday(again). it was a beutiful day yesterday. i decided that i'll be an ass if i spent the whole mrning completing my lit assignment. so i finished the whole book of "The Rose of Singapore". the ending is so 'gek sim'. peter's plane crashed on his way back to england after he rose promised to wait for him before he went to the airport. what an irony..
anyway, just now the hk auntie commented that my hair is long alr.(erm..) n i said that i'm going to cut my hair soon. n she said girls with long hair are "real" girls. i was like "wat crap is that?" inside me. few days ago, i was asking those sitting ard me in class if i shld cut my hair. they said i look better with long hair. n rachel reminded me that chang e should have long hair.(i hate rachel.haha) i suddenly thought of pn. he said that he prefers long hair. "but some short hair i also like." if we are still together now, would he still say the same thing if i told him i wanna cut my hair?
it's wierd that i still thinks of him sometimes. it's obvious that there's no love in between us. he wants me bacause he needs something frm me. n i want him because i need comfort frm him. it's not those kind of physical comfort. but those kind of attention he can give me for that period of few days. it's just those kind of feeling of being remembered. someone who says gud nite to you every night, ask you what are you doing every now and then, says i love yous to you whenever he likes. it's obvious that those are just nonsensical stuffs said with no feeling but it's just the feeling of being possesed when he said,"just tell the guy u have a bf" thing.
it's hard to explain.
on the other hand, i dun have any memory of that one day with kl. it's just so empty that i really can't remember a thing. or maybe there's really nothing.
when i compared the both of them now, i prefer being with 10 pn to being with 100 kl.
Though pn dosen't rox that much. but at least i'm happy when i'm with him...
posted @ 11:28 AM
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