Saturday, May 24, 2008
june holidays started yesterday. but it doesn't feel like a holiday. i have to return to school for the first week. full week. n have to return many times for the subsequent weeks. sian..
went to bishan park 2 for cross country on thursday. it's so fun!! we were like waving to everyone we see outside the bus. most ppl ignored us. how rude. haha.. then, we wen past a construction site. we waved to the worker inside. and he waved back! you shld have seen our reaction. we were like so excited and started waving back n shouting n cheering like mad. we forgot for a moment that he can't hear us. when the traffic light turned green, we waved goodbye to him. haha..
yesterday. friday. cca day.
i saw yikai in the canteen and he told me he put my zuo wen on my table. when i returned to class, i saw it but did not keep it immediately. after chinese lessin, we had to go to the hall for assembly. then i saw a letter under evrything on my desk. frm yikai. surprised. nice envelope. open it n read its contents quickly. didn't finish it on the spot cos have to go le. but i was smiling to myself as i was browsing thru cos those were really sweet memories. then there was cl. had lunch with tiffany n xiao lu. fungi joined us after that. kinda felt wierd. cos i normally have lunch with yikai n efulyn. xiao lu said she doesn't want her guardian to come for the parent-teacher session. so i went to look for ms leow with her after lunch. it was 1.25pm then. we had a hard time looking for ms leow and mdm ngo. it ended up that ms leow was actually in the class talking to junyong's mum. i wanted to go but lucy told me to wait for her. ok lor. anyway i jus dun feel like leaving for i&e room. then we waited for ms leow to finsh talking. then we waited again for ms leow to bring out lucy's report book. and i waited patiently while ms leow talked to xiao lu abt her results. after everything, i walked slowly to i&e room.
1.45pm.
cl cancelled cos the man not coming today. ok. cancelled. not like before when i'll be really happy when it's cancelled. i walked out alone. go to the toilet alone. n leave the sch alone. suddenly realised that yikai, efulyn, qq and bei ying stepped down le. i'll be alone now. alone to face the juniors. alone to face the teachers. alone to face the man. alone to return key. alone to walk out of school. alone to go toilet. alone to laugh.
and nobody to eat meatballs with me when cl is cancelled or after cl when i'm hungry.
why do i take so long to realise that. it's so late now. kinda feel sad. but not crying. jus feel empty. wanna cry.
hai yan.
zhong jiang.
qing shu.
memories scanned thru.
happy moments ended at qing shu.
but times weren't bad with you guys ard.
i think i'm going to cry.
posted @ 3:40 PM
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